July 27, 2003

      Wow I am tired. Probably more tired than I have been in a while. Today I went golfing and that was horrible. My swing was all anti-Naseem and my form was horrible, but I still had fun. Then I got to see my Uncle Alex, and how disgusting society is. I mean, while we were eating lunch at my uncle's restaurant, all my dad's friends were drooling over some 24 year old Bosnian woman who was a friend of my Uncle Farshid, totally flirting with her and checking her out and I wanted to throw my fork at them all. Stupid and sickening. Men are pigs.

 

 

 

July 26, 2003

      I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being angry and hopeless all the time. I'm sorry for not being more controlled. I'm sorry for how I am. I'm sorry for being a horrible friend sometimes. But you know, I just feel deserted. Like NONE of you care about me anymore. You all say that you're there for me/us/whoever, but how much do you REALLY mean that? Think deep and hard about it.

 

 

July 25, 2003

      Too many things going on. I'm exhausted. Going on vacation in a few weeks for 13 days, then going to Louisville for my dad's engagement party. Yes ladies and gentlemen, my dad's getting married. I just feel too numb to even take everything into consideration right now. Ignorance is...whatever. I'm the walking, wasted pile of absolute, pure, numbness. I want to get out of my life. I want to get out of it all. I just feel walked on, like all of you keep taking advantage of me and telling me your problems. Do you even stop to ask yourself, "I wonder what's bothering Naseem?" Or do you even bother to ask bigger questions, go into depth, dive into detail? Do any of you even fucking care anymore?

 

 

 

July 15, 2003

      SUMMER IS HALF OVER! YES! BLING BLING! This summer's been boring and lonely, but it has been enjoyable in some cases. Oh well. I'm looking forward to seeing the Two Towers for the 3rd time on Saturday, and then Kira's coming to spend the night afterwards. Then, Sunday, CHICAGO! YAAAAAAAAAAAY!

 

 

 

July 13, 2003

      Gar. Yes...gar. Well, to think that exactly in 1 week, I and some ninjas shall be sitting in the Ordway, watching a live performance of Chicago. Woot woot (or as Kira and me say, thoot thoot). Anyways... summer is half over, thank god. It's been, long, mostly uneventful, and depressing. Although come September, I'll probably be saying "I wish it was summer again." Meh...I'm indecisive like that. I guess it looks like my dad is for sure getting married now and then we have to go look for a NEW freaking house. If worse comes to worse, I have to go to Nicollet next year...GAR

 

 

July 11, 2003

      Life is starting to get depressing. The summer is dragging everybody down. GAH. It's hard to keep up with this life. It's hard to pretend to feel something unreal...

 

 

 

July 4, 2003

      I went to Annis's house last night for her birthday party/sleepover thing...and I was almost killed...3 times (damn you Alyssa) but it was all good. I had a beautiful time throwing raisins at Camille and watching Alyssa force her hands to have conversation. Ask me about it later...Man it was crazy. On a different note, it's the 4th of July...Woopdeedoo. Jack's coming over and we're going to light off fireworks and watch them from my house (you can see them from the living room). God I miss him so much, even though he's home now...There's a small part of me that always misses him. Well now I think I'm going to go kick my brother's ass in some video games ::runs off to the PS2::

 

 

July 2, 2003

      JACK COMES HOME TODAY! Holy shit, I have never been happier in my life. Anyways, on a different note...There's like nothing to write about...it's just a waste of precious words, so I think I will finish for now. Yes...

 

 

July 1, 2003

      The only thing that's making me smile today is the fact that Jack comes home sometime tomorrow, and I'll have another good distraction from my life...Stacy, how the hell could you...I'm not sure who I hate more; you, or me. Probably myself though because I can't reverse what I have done...But god dammit Stacy...WHY. I have never been angrier in my life...

 

Later...

      Today was Robert's early birthday party in the park, from like 3:00 to 5:30. Woohoo. We got him an X-Box, the game Halo, and an extra controller; Carly baked a delicious cake, Chris blew up the cake (ok a slice of it) with fireworks, Seth almost fell out of a tree, and other good stuff like that happened. WOOHOO! 'Twas great fun. Now I am happy because I have sugar pulsing through my veins. MUAHAHAHA! ::coughs:: We love Robert.