12.31.03
last day of the year. i'm going to shlee's tonight to chill with my homies. it shall be much fun. oh, joe if i don't talk to you in the next 24 hours (which i doubt) happy birthday.
you'll never guess what i got today........NEW SOCKS.
i have no clue why i'm writing in here. yeah, happy new year. party like an animal!
12.18.03
holy god i don't think i have ever been this grateful for a break from school. so far it's been splendid. i had an awesome christmas day, i saw return of the king again, i got to spend good times with my family and friends, and i've just been so HAPPY lately. i feel like i'm just clean all over, there's nothing to weigh me down anymore, and i feel so free. i'm still having small issues with eating, but my sleeping has improved a lot and i think i'm going through another transformation, sort of leaving the old naseem behind and finding the new one. i know she's there, i can feel her inside, i just need to find and release her. i feel more connected to my family, nature, and myself. like, the other day, i went and just laid down in the snow for an hour. i said nothing, i was totally alone, and i just watched the clouds pass over me and the birds fly above me, and i was totally struck with awe and i felt so small in the midst of the pressing beauty around me, and it just made me feel so happy. i just can't stop smiling and laughing. my face actually HURTS. *sigh* life is good, and i am loving it.
12.16.03
before i get into the highlights of my day, please let me say this: saddam, no matter how horrible of a human he is and no matter what he's done, is NOT a rat. he is a human being, like you and me, and despite the wrong and horror he has brought upon his countrymen and women, he deserves to be brought to a fair fuckin' trial and not slaughtered like an ANIMAL. i am well aware of the death and torture and pain and suffering and absolute hell he has caused. and mr. president...well i have my shortcomings with his opinions, decisions, sayings, thoughts, whatever. observe:
"I call upon all nations to do everything they can to stop these terrorist killers. Thank you. Now watch this drive."
--August 4, 2002, on violence in the Middle East... and his golf game
"I do not think witchcraft is a religion, and I do not think it is in any way appropriate for the U.S. military to promote it." - October 15, 2000
"The ambassador and the general were briefing me on the the vast majority of Iraqis want to live in a peaceful, free world. And we will find these people and we will bring them to justice." George W. Bush, Washington, D.C., Oct. 27, 2003
"See, free nations are peaceful nations. Free nations don't attack each other. Free nations don't develop weapons of mass destruction." George W. Bush, Milwaukee, Wis., Oct. 3, 2003
"I think war is a dangerous place." George W. Bush, Washington, D.C., May 7, 2003
"When Iraq is liberated, you will be treated, tried and persecuted as a war criminal." George W. Bush, Washington, D.C., Jan. 22, 2003
i wonder how he can say that [quote] and say that he then wants him killed? if we turn him over to the iraqi government, they will kill him for sure, but in this country or anywhere else, he should be offered a trial. he is a CRIMINAL, and should be treated like one, not like an animal that deserves to die. the headline on the newspaper today was something like "good riddence saddam, the world will be better off without you." the entire world has NOT been under his system of governing. not everyone in the world has been tortured by him, killed, or had acts of cruelty and malice washed over their heads. the iraqis will be better off without him. the rest of the world probably won't care.
in case you're really stupid, i am very against this "war".
anyways....good day yes? we spent about an hour of rehearsal going over the script and ironing out problems we had, and then we actually got to rehearse. the problem is, orth kept making his faces, so my stomach still hurts a bit from laughing so hard. merrrrrrr...oh well.
12.15.03
today we had our first rehearsal, and it went really good for a read through, but alas, orth gave us a schpiel :-/. besides skipping fifth hour to talk to orth, my day pretty much sucked. i was tired all day, and i was in one of those moods where i didn't really wanna be touched, but i opened up a bit later on. meh...i'm tired...
12.14.03
merrrrrrrrr...last night i saw arsenic again, and i finally got to meet nate :-D so i was expecially happy. he's so beautiful. then mike spat flower petals on me and then actually spat on my hand after the show. i probably have SARS now or something.
merrrr, i have to leave soon to go to sunday school. merrrr i say, merrrrrr.
life is good man :)
12.12.03
sorry, it's been a while. not much has happened. i auditioned monday, and got nora, who is the second female lead in walkin' home. kira and i are sisters :). i think it's funny how we auditioned for the roles that the other got. oh well. rehearsals start monday, and i cannot wait. i offer my congratulations to everyone. woooot. well, in about half an hour, i am going to go see arsenic and old lace. i hear lauren leads the gang of crazy old ladies. this shall be interesting...
holy hell, first semester is almost over...NO MORE SHELERUD! i swear if i have her again i am going to blow a gasket. i looooooathe her.
12.3.03
it was a late start today. and i was very cold all day. blargh. well at least i'm home now. i got the "walkin' home" packet yesterday. it's a fabulous script. mr. orth should get a trophy. i feel really tired, but what else is new? it's just the rush of life. throw your things together, get in the car/on the bus, go to their house, live there for a week, then repeat the entire process, over and over and over again. and yes i know i should be thankful for them not living together and having constant fights, but really. it's SO draining to do all of that. i personally could care less whether i see them or not. but that's just me.
12.1.03
Holy hell, November is finally over, thank you very much. I swear, it's the slowest month. Anywho...um...oh yes! Today was the preaudition meeting for Orth's one-act, called Walkin' Home. It's essentially a 9 cast show, but he intends to have a past and present cast (sort of like TITO, but not in the same sense). I don't want to tell too much about it though. Sorry :). I am going to audition for Sonja, the lead role, or S tan. And, yes it's supposed to be like that. Observe: S(a)tan. Stan is Sonja's conscience. Yeah it will be cool. Stan's a non-gender role, so it would be fun to play. We don't have the packets because the copier went poof and broke, so I am packet-less *tear.*
Today, in science, I blacked out. It was not fun. Nobody noticed though, so that's all fine and wonderful. It might be because my eating and sleeping is weird, or it might be because I have an underlying disease...probably ebola...woo, my intestines are going to liquify!
